November 17, 2005

Shattered dreams..

What an emotional roller coaster I have been on.

End of Oct. dh found about a job in MN. 2 phone interviews end of Oct, and on Nov. 1st the company flew him up to MN for a f2f interview. It went really well. He came home on the 2nd. He got offered the job on the 8th, got the paperwork in the mail on the 10th, faxed it to the company's HR on the 11th, resigned from BD on the 11th call our entire families and shared our good news that weekend. The Relocation Consultant called me on the 14th, got Troy temp housing in MN on the 15th, faxed all paperwork to the Relocation Consultant morning of the 16th and at 2:07pm on the 16th Troy called me at home and said that the deal fell through.

I am sooo devestated. I don't think Im going to recover. My dreams are literally shattered. I can't stop crying and so far have done a real good job not crying in front of dh. I can't help but keep asking ?'s about if it's really over, because at 5:30pm tonight we were STILL getting emails from the relocation consultant, and the real estate company in town even called Troy at work and asked when they could set up an apprasail meeting. You'd THINK that if the deal fell through, HR would of called the relocation consultant first, even before they called us, because the company pays for relocatoin. Dh got mad at me tonight for asking so many ?'s. Im sorry..I just can't help but dream that this isn't over. Im so sick of living here, Im so sick of everything. I just want to crawl in a shell and die.

We find out tomorrow if dh still has a job with his current employer. They have someone flying in tomorrow to interview. What a damn nighmare.

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